[grief] hurts today

There are days when grief simply hurts. Today is one of those days. You can't do anything about it; You can't fight it; you can't reach out and talk. It just simply hurts. I really hate when I get this hollow feeling, a hole so deep in my chest, that it goes straight through me. I want to see my father today. The urge is so strong and painful. We had the best conversations and laughs; he taught me to live. Grief has been whittling away at my life's breath. I miss you so much today, Dad.  I love you always.